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If I Stay

Author:  Gayle Forman

Just listen,' Adam says with a voice that sounds like shrapnel. I open my eyes wide now. I sit up as much as I can. And I listen.
‘Stay,’ he says.

Everybody has to make choices.

Some might break you.

For seventeen-year-old Mia, surrounded by a wonderful family, friends and a gorgeous boyfriend decisions might seem tough, but they’re all about a future full of music and love, a future that’s brimming with hope. 

But life can change in an instant. 

A cold February morning . . . a snowy road . . . and suddenly all of Mia’s choices are gone. Except one. 

As alone as she’ll ever be, Mia must make the most difficult choice of all.

Gripping, heartrending, If I Stay will make you appreciate all that you have, all that you’ve lost - and all that might be.

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Aug 10,2014

I loved reading If I Stay. I was a little sceptical about how this book could keep my interest for the whole time I was reading it, but it did it with ease. The characters were the main reason for why I loved this book so much. They were all so vibrant and utterly compelling to read about. Their stories and their lives captured me and I loved reading about Mia and Adam’s relationship. It’s rare that I enjoy reading a lot of flashbacks, but this was definitely a time that I did. I absolutely loved reading about what happened before the accident. My favourite parts of the book were the flashbacks to Adam and Mia. I loved learning the story of their relationship and it was beautiful to see how close they were.
If I Stay is such a beautifully written, character-driven novel. From a glance, this book is about a girl choosing between life and death. With each unfolding event, Mia debates as to whether it would be worth staying and dealing with the pain and loss of what has happened, or whether it would be simply easier to die. But this book is so much more than that. The story is so emotional and had me tearing up on multiple occasions. I felt incredibly connected to all of the characters and I loved spending time with all of them. I definitely recommend reading it!

May 17,2014

REVIEW: If I Stay by Gayle Forman

“If I Stay will not help you get over The Fault In Our Stars,” the headline read, with a link to the trailer to the 2009 novel’s movie adaptation underneath. 

Yeah. Sure. What could be worse than TFIOS?

This is, definitely, inarguably ten times worse than TFIOS. To those who have witnessed my reactions to seeing the TFIOS trailer in cinemas, you’ll know that this is saying something.

Speaking of saying something, who on earth decided that playing A Great Big World’s smash hit Say Something in the midst of a trailer about losing the people you love? Whoever it was needs to be applauded and also needs a stern talking to.

I’m surprised Gayle Forman’s novel, published in 2009, hadn’t come across my radar before. In fact, I don’t even remember how I found it just a few months ago, but good god am I glad I did. There has never been a doubt in my mind that John Green’s TFIOS changed my life, I’ll happily admit that until the day I die. I’m not sure what it was, maybe the love story that showed me that it doesn’t matter who you are, where you come from or where you’re at, you’re capable of loving fully and being loved in return. I’m so, so glad that If I Stay is a different kind of love story; a subtle one. Forman doesn’t beat around the bush, she plows through it. I was sobbing within the first eleven pages, where our main girl Mia is introducing us to the flaws of her family, and why she loves them so much. Here’s the line that had me in tears, a blanket wrapped around my head instead of my body:

You wouldn’t expect the radio to work afterwards. But it does.

There aren’t any chapter breaks in this book, so you don’t know when to stop, if you do at all. I didn’t, and read the book in four hours straight, barely able to breath in the dark of the night when I flipped the last page. I guess the idea around If I Stay is being able to choose whether you live or die, if you even can. The book weaves in between Mia flashing back to memories of her family, friends and boyfriend, and those people coming in to see her as she’s fighting for her life. I’ve been spending the last few days wondering which part grabbed me most. The part where, with each passing moment, she realises how much the people in her life love her and want her to stay, or if the idea that something so horrific can happen to the most innocent of us.

I don’t know. I’m starting to think that what’s in my head doesn’t make sense at all. Here are some of my favourite parts from If I Stay (which I can’t wait to see on the big screen). 

“But the you who you are tonight is the same you I was in love with yesterday, the same you I’ll be in love with tomorrow.”

And another that I love with my whole heart, one I’m considering framing to put on my wall, so I can stare at it and be damn thankful for the wonderful people in my life who choose to keep me around. 

“If you stay, I’ll do whatever you want…if you need me to go away, I’ll do that too. I was talking to Liz and she said that maybe coming back to your old life would just be too painful, that maybe it’d be easier for you to erase us. And that would suck, but I’d do it. I can lose you like that if I don’t lose you today. I’ll let you go. If you stay.”

Annnnnd cue the tears. Maybe it’s just me, I’m a sucker for good quotes. I’ve compiled a list. Books will ruin me. I’m more than happy with that. If you watched the trailer and think you’d like to see the movie, definitely try and read the book first. It’s not long, and will grip you enough for you not to put it down. Good luck!

Oh, and this ended up on my favourites shelf, if that’s any indication of how good it is!

Sam :)

Oct 06,2012

My librarian recommened this book to a few people in my class and they didn't pick it up so I did.

I liked it but I didn't LOVE it.

It was an okay read. 

Nov 11,2011

If I stay is a great book! Mia has to make a choice to live or die.

Jul 25,2011


The book I read over the holidays was called ‘If I Stay’ by Gayle Foreman.  The book follows the journey of an eighteen year old girls’ family who get torn apart by a car accident that kills her mother, father and little brother. She is badly injured and has an out of body experience where she is witnessing herself and the impact on her family and friends; she then has to make a heart wrenching decision- whether she stays on earth or goes to heaven.  I thought this book was really well written, and was an emotional tear-jerker that left you wanting to read more.

Jasmine Copeland 7m


Jun 06,2011

I think that this book is amazingly written and I would encourage others to read it. I would recommend it to people who are 10 or above because it is written more for older people.Younger people couldn't read it because they  would not understand it.

It already has a very sad plot and Gayle Forman wrote it so beautifully that it is simply outstanding. I would like to read more books by Gale Forman.  


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